小棠的心情札记

My Birthday Analysis

2007-04-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

11月27日﹝火星#隐士﹞代表人物：李小龙

勇猛、冲动、果敢，喜欢冒险；热爱运动，喜爱自由自在的行动，不愿受约束；直觉能力和爆发力很强。

优点是热诚、活力充沛，行动和反应快速，充满自信。

缺点是容易冲动、愤怒，有暴力倾向；不如意时容易感到沮丧。

I found it incorrect for me. >_<
What do you think? My frenzzz....

I woke up by まこどさん in my japanese class

2007-02-02T08:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i had a very tiring class from 10am-7pm (no break between). I know it is not a big matter for any students in NUS as it is quite a normal case for them. But as for me, it is because i had tiring days continuesly for the week. Always have classes and meetings.... All my free time are occupied by meetings except sunday (Luckily!!). Yesterday, i finally can't tahan. I was half sleep half awake in まこどさん's class. Unfortunately i was sitting just right in front of him and i knew he perceived me as well. He kept asking questions in class and hold his mic in front of students and expecting thier answers. But in my instinct, i could feel that he seems like will ask me finally. (actually i feel that he has spotted me for long) However, i just dun care. Still half insane in class.. blur blur.... just waiting for the 10 minutes break to recharge myself.
Suddenlly, his mic just appeared in front of me. I quickily start thinking and answering him slowly word by word. The japanese sentence came from my mouth very 'lak lak kak kak', luckily he '收货'. Didn't ask me repeat it. Phew~~~~ 过关!!!! YeaH!!!
But after that, i was totally awakw already. During the break, i no have mood to sleep or rest already. Thanks まこどさん woke me up. Hehehe.... Then start chit chat with Li Han instead of taking a short nap.

= Just a complain =

2006-04-09T15:05:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time that i didn't update this blog cos i have another blog already. That is msn blog, i found that more ppl will read that more often cos most of my friends are msn users. ^_^
However, i will not abandone this blog also. As the name of this blog, 小棠的心情札记, i prefer to post my 'thought' here....
Exams are coming, everybody is extremely stress... me either... I am quite sad these days.. not because of exams but friendship. I tried hard many times to ask my coursemates study with me, but thet just ignored me! I am studying alone all the way. I am wondering... is this should be a Uni Student's life ever? Undoubtly, as a Uni student, we were not spoon-feed anymore, we have to be independent. But indepedence != alone, y most of the uni students always being alone?
Before i came to NUS, my dream Uni life is not like this! I was expecting a more exciting and challenging life!!! I like to gather with a group ppl, I like to study, have meals, play sports....with ppl. However, NUS leads a boring life to her students! 'Competition' has killed our interaction with ppl. Everyday, we stick to our study, projects, assignments, tutorials....Morever, NUS has also brought up more and more 'selfish' ppl sucessfully!!! Ppl unwilling to share his knowledges to others cos he afraids that others will get better result than him. Ppl avoid to study or work with those who is weaker than him, cos he couldn't get advantage from him!!!
I perceived a really bad phenomenon here. That is a problem getting around with ppl. At the begining of sth, ppl try thier best to get to know new friends, getting around together. At the end, they become friends!!! But when there is a late comer join in, they will treat the person as an alien!!! What the h**l??!! >_< (Oh! I am so rude!)
But is that the attitude to get a friend?? Get a friend just WHEN you need a friend?? Well, i am not blaming the ppl but the society. The society made us become like this!!

The conclusion is, I hate this society!!!!

Singapore's Chinese New Year 2006

2006-02-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

4th of Feb,
以为今天会是很平静度过的周末，后来竟然遇到朋友的邀约出去过新年，本来想啃书的我改变了念头，决定出门了。如果不是朋友的提醒，我想我已忘了原来新年还未结束！看来这一次是我第一次在星加玻“过新年“，终于看到星加玻是如何庆祝农历新年的。
以为一直爱吹西洋风的星加玻对农历新年并不是很重视，因为大学的假期只有短短的两天。。。。可是今天真的让我打开眼界！！也许是因为我太没见识吧！！所以对于星加玻的大事庆祝，难免会有一些惊喜！当晚，Singapore River的两旁可说是热闹极了！各国的美食档口，摆卖中国大大小小玩意儿的摊子到处都是，还有算命，算姓的也有！！！可是能够吸引我们的，当然是美食咯！由于那里的食物太贵了，所以无法品尝每一道食物，不过说实在的，味道不怎么好，怎么都比不上怡保的美食。哈哈哈！！！

舞狮舞龙是新年不可缺少的环节，舞狮我们是看不到，可是却看到舞龙。当我听到锣鼓响的声音时，立刻迫不及待的冲过去看，可是看了之后觉得有点失望，因为他们舞得很烂，不好看，看不到龙在飞的感觉，整条龙好像病了，没精神。。。。还好，来自中国的表演团可精彩极了！！完全看到了真功夫，各族的舞蹈，杂技。。都让人叹为观止！！热爱中华文化的我当然看得直拍手咯！！还看得很感动呢！！因为，台上十分钟，台下十年功的道理，我懂。

道路的两旁都挂上了灯饰和灯笼，真的很漂亮！！还有十二生肖和财神的肖像，于是我们这一班鼠辈们立刻到那肖像前拍照，冰淇淋姐姐还拍的舍不得离开，势必要拍到完美的照片。一直想发财的我当然一定要和财神爷爷拍照咯，好沾一沾他老人家的财气嘛！呵呵！！

后来，我们去了靠近 Esplanade 的人行桥看烟花。当烟花飞上天空绽放时，真的好美，好灿烂。。我也不禁叫了起来，可美珊见状，立刻捂住了我的叫声，她说：“好"Xia Sui"哦！！唔。。。。也对！！可是，我觉时情绪不应该常常被隐藏起来。我很喜欢姐姐的笑声，每当看戏时，她总会不顾仪态的Kakakaka的笑起来，本来不觉得特别好笑的戏都会因为她的笑声而觉得特别好看，好笑，很轻松，也顿时让我觉得原来电影也可以这么欣赏的，总算不辜负演员们的卖力演出吧！她那Kaka大笑的笑声总为家里增添了娱乐感，我也很欣赏她那毫不掩饰自己情绪的性子。

好了，现在我尝试和大家分享烟花的美丽吧！新年快乐！！！

Happy Chinese New Year!!

2006-01-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is just around the corner.. Everyone is so excited and some of them is leaving now..... i suppose to be very excited to go home also. But i am afraid to face my sister now.
2006 is a special year to me, it brought me so many excitement since the start of the year. Hopefully i could learn more and grow up in this year. I am already age 21 and need to be mature.
Here, i would like to wish all of my frens have a great Chinese New Year. May they obtain sth they wanted so long and "sun sun lai lai" in this year!!!
I really hope tha everyone is 'pin pin an an' and 'kai kai xin xin'.
Gong Xi Fa Chai!!!

Just a little thought

2005-11-07T09:56:00.000+08:00

最近突然有一个很想学弹钢琴的念头。对从来都看不懂五线谱的我而言，是一件难事。
突然想学的原因是-->喜欢听音乐！！一直以来我都很喜欢听歌，可是最近听歌听到很烦，不想听到人的声音，反而只想听纯音乐。我向来对清脆的钢琴声和幽幽的笛子声情有独钟。。。。所以，我总是抓一些会弹钢琴的朋友弹钢琴给我听，可是他们总是找理由推辞。。。。久而久之，人家不觉得烦，我也会觉得没趣，因为总是求人的感觉不好。。。这时我就想，如果自己会弹上一两首曲子就好了，至少不用求人家，自己可以随心弹。。。。。弹钢琴的好处很多，不但听的人享受，弹的人也可陶冶心情，把情绪发泄出来。象我这样整天自闭的人，需要音乐来安抚我的玻璃心。。。。希望我会有这样的机会吧！！

糗毙了~~~~ >_<

2005-10-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

今天我真是糗毙了！！！竟然在大庭广众之下摔倒了！！！而且是在巴士上呢！！
今天当巴士循循走上YIH车站的斜坡时，我正好从内座出来准备下车。由于当时巴士上是蛮拥挤的，出来的时候很难拿到平衡的中心，当时巴士突然动摇了一下，我整个人立刻失去了平衡就往后跌了！还好两旁的男生立刻抓住我的手，我才不至于跌个四脚朝天！！真谢谢他们及时伸出援手。。。可是，当时真的好糗啊！！！大家都在笑我。。。。可是，我也不慌不忙的回他们一个笑容！！！！说实在的，我自己不免也笑我自己。>_<
总之，我今天真是糗毙了！！！！
希望没有人会记得我吧！！！！

~ShOCk~

2005-10-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

Few days ago, i received a terrible news from my US fren. My "friends" who worked in a same company with me in US were found died in an car accident while travelling in USA!!! I was so shock when i knew about it. They are international students from Crezh Republic, who worked in Grand Canyon during summer vacation (same as us). Two week ago, they left Grand Canyon and travel around USA before returning thier own country. Unfortunately, they had an terrible accident. Two of them had died and one of them became coma. Although i dun really know them (cos we were not in the same department), but i felt really sorry about thier accident.
It is really hard to imagine it could happen to them. It is really sad that they never had a chance to see thier family before they gone!!!!!!
It is really scary!!!
Hope that the one in coma will wake up early...... and get well soon.
阿弥陀佛！！！

Friendship

2005-09-17T00:52:00.000+08:00

最近不知怎么了。。好像整个人都被掏空了！就像是一个失去了灵魂的人。自从学校开学后，终日只埋头在书本里，很少和人沟通。。。。渐渐的，也不知道自己要的是什么。。。可是，无论如何我必须完成我的学业。。。。
虽然在美国已经呆了三个月，应该休息够了。可是后来发觉那不是我想要的。。。当然我绝对不会后悔我去美国的决定，至少我遇到一些值得交的朋友，去了一些值得去的地方。。可是令我感慨的是，很多朋友一旦分开，就很难在保持当时有的那份情谊，感情。。。可能永远不会有再见面的机会了。。我很早就知道这个道理了，所以当时我很珍惜当时的时光。。希望日子久了以后，我不会忘了他们任何一个吧！因为善忘的我总是很快忘记身边的事和人。
很多人都会觉得我很没有心肝。。。。可是我这个毛病真的很难变好！可是，我很感谢一个朋友对我的不离不弃和谅解，我每次总是忘记她的生日，也没有送她任何礼物。。但她对我总是很有‘心肝’的，每年都会买礼物给我。是她让我深深的明白什么是真正朋友，真正的朋友是不会计较，只会真正地为对方付出，永远对你说出不中听的话-->也就是‘真心话’，永远支持你！快乐的时候很少想到对方，但难过的时候一定会找对方诉苦！哈哈！这种朋友，一生中有一个就是千年修来的福报了！
难过的是，她不知什么时候会离开我。希望死神不会这么快找上她！可以的话，我愿意把我生命的一部分给她！可是那并不表示我很伟大，我其实是一个很自私的人，我只是不想身边没有人让我欺负！！！

I am making PizZ@

2005-05-22T23:26:00.000+08:00

18th of May, my second working day, my manager assigned me to make Pizza!! My friend, Tze Ming taught me how to make a pizza, i learnt to make Supreme Pizza, Cheese Pizza and Peperoni Pizza. Now, i can realize how high calories of a Pizza..... we need to put a lot of cheese on it!!! Furthernmore, i learnt to make some salads too. Both are easy making food. My friend, Arthur and my F&B director praised my Pizza looks very nice!! Hahahah.... i am so happy!! ^_^ At first i was so nervous, cos i never do it before and i rarely eat it also. So i have no idea how a pizza and salad should look like.....
I really enjoying to make pizza cos i can just "hide" myself aside and do my work. I hope my manager wil assigned me to make pizza very often. Hehehe.......
A Za A Za, Jia You!!!

19th of May, my off day. I just took a rest in room in the morning. AFter taling my lunch, i trekked to campground area. It was a about one hour trail. At first, i though the trail will not be so long. When i was trekking, i could very few ppl, but they all walked from my opposite. I was walking alone there. I started to feel nervous and worry while i ws getting inside and more inside the jungle. I had no water, no bag, no map... I just wore a jacket with 10 bucks and a camera inside my pocket. SOmemore, it was already 5pm. Yet, I had not reach the campground. I asked myself repeatedly, should i turn back or go forward???!!! Cos i dunno when can i reach the campground, and how do i get back to my dorm when i reach there???!!!
However i decided to go forward until i reach the campground. I kept talling myself that if i never try, i will never know what is in front. I know i will regret if i return. OB spirit!!!! Move it move it move it!!!!! ^_^ I dun want to waste my effort for already walking about one hour before. Then, I walked for more about 20 minutes, i finally reach the place. I was glad that i didn't turn back, cos when i turn back i will need to walk about one hour to get back the place where i departed from.

I could many ppl there finally. I was not alone anymore!!! It was a nice place for camping but we need to pay for it. I walked out the campsite and reached a grocery shop there. I bought a bottle of water there. But i was still thiking how to go back to my dorm. I really dun have any idea where i was locating. *_*
Lucily when i started to walk out the area and try to seek for my way out, i saw a shuttle bus came in, Oh, that was Parks!!! A guy who is working summer job as a drive there, i jumped into his car and he drove me back. Hahahaha........ i am so lucky!! Thanks Buhhda's protection!!! Now i voulc know the campground is actually quite near my dorm, Hhm..... i explored one more place here already!!! ^o^
A Za A Za!!!! I will explore more and more next time!!!!

StarT woRkiNg

2005-05-21T03:58:00.000+08:00

17th of May, my first working day in "Deli in the Pines", well.... we just call it Deli. I was so surprised that i have two more friendswere assigned to work there suddently. I am glad that i am not alone!! hehehe.... Irenne and me were taught to make subs and sandwiches. It was really fun. At first , i am so worry and blur cos i am not familiar with western food. I have to learn different type of cheese, ham, meat and all different name of each food. But it was really FUN!!! I can make subs and sandwich now!! It was so easy! I still remember Sussane likes these kind of food. She told us once that those food are easy to be prepard. Now, i can know lah!!! hahahha......

However, i made some mistakes also....... hahhaha.....but luckily the customers here are so kind and hospitality. I like them so much!! They unlike the customers that i have met before in E-Box, they were really rude and they will scold you or showed a unhappy face to you...... Well.. i really like here!!

Impress in USA

2005-05-17T13:52:00.000+08:00

USA is a big big city!!! While the flight is going to landing. it get closer to the ground. I could see there is many moutains there. All cities here are sepearted by mountains........

Day one in USA ( 14th of May, 5.00pm) >> according to time zone in Los Angeles
Once we reached Los Angeles, we took a van to greyhound bus terminal. On the way to the bus terminal, the driver told us that not to go to some places there cos the place has many blacks and the security is not good as well........We bought tickets to St George. The bus will depart at 10pm. Due to the driver's advise, we dare not to walk around the area althought we intended to do so initially. While we are waiting time pass, some ppl approached us and asked for money by saying that they lost their ticket and have no enough money to buy a new onw, some said that they lost their belongins...... However, they will give you responde positively although you declined to give them money. They will just go away. Some may say: "It is ok, have a nice day!!"
Finally 10pm, we get into bus. We passed by a few places, one of it is Las Vegas. We had about one hour hanging around there. We grab the chance walked and took some photos there. It was a beautiful city!! Blasting lights and casinos were all around.

Day 2 in USA (15th of May,8am >> Time Zone in Utah)
Finally reached ST George, Utah, One hour faster than in LA. Dick, a nice man from Grand Canyon, picked us up to Zion (apart of Grand Canyon)which is 3000 feet hill from town. We spent a night in Zion. At the same time, we grab this chance to walk around the the place and took some beautiful pictures. At night, i just stayed in my room and slept. I am sick!!!

Day 3 ...
We backed to Zion again to apply for our security card. There, we met another group from Singapore. Afte that, we went to Zion Bank to open an account for deposit our pay check. Then we went to have our lunch and buy something in a market before we went to our destinantion>> North Rim. On the way to North Rim, we passed by amny shops, i could see that fast food shops were all around, it seems that ppl here just have fast food evverday.. nothing else to eat???!!!
On the way to North Rim, we can see snow!!!!!!! It was my first time to see NATURE snow!!! So exciting!!! Hahahha... the driver is so nice and he stopped the car and let us to take some pictures there... Thanks!!!
After 3 hours journey, we finally reached our destination. I choosed to be a food operator.. making sandwiched, subs, pizza and salad...

What is my element???

2005-05-01T03:38:00.000+08:00

Your element is Fire. Like fire, you have a hot
temper and you can be warm and loving as well
and angry and wild. It all really comes down to
what you are feeling. You have a lot of close
friends who you are very protective over, and
with your temper probably some enemies too. You
are not Miss Popular in school since you are
your own person and don't want to be forced
into behaving this or that way. You are the
untamed wild horse, the kind that everyone
wants to catch. But you don't want to be tied
down for the moment and just keep going with
your little crushes. Your will is strong and if
you set your mind to do something, you will
most likely succeed. But beware, your friends
may not always accept your mood-swinging
behaviour. Even if you don't mean to be mean,
they can still feel hurt. You just need to
start thinking some things through before you
do them, and not always jump in with so much
courage. One day you may be hurt because of
that, but then again, your element isn't fire
if you start to analyse situations before you
act. After all, your nature is to shoot first
and ask the questions later. Rate and message!

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My True Hidden Power???!!!

2005-04-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

Your Hidden Power Is Light
Angel

You have a happy yes quite soul. You keep
somethings to yourself and like to be alone but
don't mind showing your bright side to your
friends. You find that hell is the worst of all
scince your an angl from heavan. You use your
powers for the forces of good to protect gods
creatures.

Gem Stone: Canary Diamond, Eye
Color:Golden,Hair Color:Blonde that
goes to your shoulders

Quote:In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lulaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

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Crazy PC

2005-04-08T17:51:00.000+08:00

counting down.......... 13, 12, 11, 10,..........exam is coming very soon!!!!! All of the NUS students study like crazy now........ SOooo....stress!!!!! How i wish time can be passed slower.......
My pc is bullying me these days. I couldn't online these days........ But it is very weird that i can online in Central Library now, as i couldn't online in my room... It is really really really weird!!!
Rie had a thai music performance yesterday evening at The Center of Arts. Rie was wearing thai custom and playing the thai instrument, she looks very beautiful... Everyone said that she looks a princess.. Hum... i agree that strongly...... After their presentation, Rie taught me how to play the instrument, i found it is not easy. I always confuse which spring should i hit on. ^_*
After the presentation, we moved back to PGP together. Oopss!!! I left my water bottle in center of the arts!!! Oh!! It is not a 1st time i left my belongings somewhere else.... it can be considered as a normal scenario for me, because i used to forgot my hp twice in PGP, luciky some honest people returned to me afterward. Thanks so much! May god bless these kind hearted people..... ^_^
Then Rie had dinner in my place and she taught us some bad Japanese words and phrases....... hhehehe... actually we asked her to teach us some bad words........ "_" hehehhe.... Tyng and me are bad girls.

Sign..... i miss Malaysia so much!! Hope that i can go back soon. ^0^

Happy Birthday to Tyng!!!

2005-04-03T03:26:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Tyng!! You are finally stepping into 21 years old!! Dai go lui lo!! Shang shang sing sing ah! Dun bully me always lah! You are a big sister to me.... hehehhe............. I wish may your dream comes true!!!! I hope you enjoy the celebration this 'morning'. Thanks to your jie jie lah!!! She was the one who prepared all the stuffs and bought all the food. ^_^
After that, we all proceeded to foyer because Rie and John are going to dance for us there. They had a really great performance!!!! Waltz and Samba!! Samba is the more interesting compare to Waltz but Waltz is not easy too... the steps seems to be very complicate to me... #_#

Today i had a second cherrleading lesson in MPSH2. It was quite boring for me..... :( I was so tired and got muscle ache as well...... Cheerleading consuming time on practice. I am worry i couldn't spend so much on it since i MUST push my study as the 1st. (Although i dun really like to study) Yet, everyone need to work hard here!!! Jia You!!

Sigh....... i will be living in PGP next semester. Another boring year is coming..............

The most scary stunt that i never experience before...

2005-03-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

Finally finished the lesson of Cheer Leading this evening, it was really scary and exciting!!! We learnt some basic stunts today. The first stunt we have learnt is sitting shoulder. Unfortunately, i think due to my weight and height, i could no sit on a guy's shoulder. The guy is much more taller than me plus my jump was not high enough, we couldn't do the stunt eventually. I am so sad and feel sorry to the guy since he has tried his best to lift me up....Yet, i failed to do that. Sigh....... think that i should reduce my weight for the team's good.
Then, we learn to stand on someone's shoulder (guy's shoulder),however it was a failure to me too... i was so scare and couldn't balance myself well... i didn't have self-confidence too.....

Shoulder Stands

However, we didn't have partner to hold on each other like them......

For the 3rd stunt is called Extension, it is the only one i could do.

Half Extension

This is the first step before we go to full extension.

To do this stunt,it required trust and tacit understanding between a flyer(girl) and two basers(guys). The flyer should have trust the basers and the basers should lift the girl at the SAME time in order to balance her. At the same time, the flyer need to lock herself to balance herself. I am quite happy and exciting that i could finally do it!!! Unbelieveable!!! At first i was thinking of give up and excape from doing that stunts. Luckily i tried finally!!!

Full Extension

It calls FULL EXTENSION, the flyer was lift to the highest position. I am so surprised that i could do it at the 1st time and 'fell down' with a right posture.I was really worry and scare b4 trying this. But i told myself i must trust them and do well what i need to do... that is stand straight and lock myself crazy. When they put me at the highest position, i could see further and felt like flying to the sky!! I am near the sky!!!! Hahahaha...... It is the most scary and exciting action that i have never done b4. Em..... i can't find any word to describe my feeling right now..... However, it was just the basic stunts. I dun really have confidence whether i can manage to do tougher stunts or not.... ^_^' Hope god bless me!!!! ^_*
But all these stunts have its dangerours also, some of flyer including fell down before, luckily they all manage to save us!!! So, we didn't hurt much.....Phew!!!!

Ok!! After we reached the highest position, how we "fall down"??? Well, it was really fell down... the flyer should open her arms and lean back a bit, just let the ppl down there to catch her. Let's have a look at it!!!

Elevator Cradle

Oh my god!! I closed my eyes when i fell down!! Hold me in time pls!!

However, by doing these stunts, guys are very important cos they need to be stronge enough to support girls' weight. But here i wanna declare that girls also need to support thier weight also. Thus, girls aslo need to be strong and brave to do!!!!
I am really appreaciate that those guys. I felt that they sacrified a lot by pushing, lifting and supporting us. Although sometimes we wrongly step on the wrong place at thier body just as shoulder, hands....... but they never blame us and keep asking us to try and try again!! Well, i really like this Team Spirit! Trust, tacit understanding, cooperation, encourage each other...... hopefully i can continue learning cheerleading. It was really fun and challenging!!!!

Here is one more pic that i found in a website. It is really COOL!!!! But we haven't reached such high level yet.

Yoo~~~~ It calls Basket Toss!!

有智慧的話。。。

2005-03-27T20:27:00.000+08:00

愚痴的人，一直想要別人去了解他。有智慧的人，卻努力地了解自己！！！

做人做事都一樣，不能一味地希望人家的了解。。。尤其是愛情，許多人往往希望自己的伴侶是一個能夠最了解自己的人；當對方不太了解自己時，就會一直的抱怨，但又有多少人會去想其實自己又有多了解對方呢？甚至對自己的了解又有多深呢？“自私”也是愛情的致命傷啊！！！

For those who leave home always.....

2005-03-22T12:17:00.000+08:00

有一個女生，因為跟家裡處得不好，所以很少回家，
後來有一次回家，發現年老的母親走路一跛一跛的，
不經意的看了母親的腳一眼，

這才發現母親的腳指甲太長而長到肉裡面造成流血，流膿，
這時，她認真的看者已經很久沒有正眼看過的母親，
她才發現在她眼前的母親已經年老，
老到已經沒有辦法彎下身來自己剪指甲，所以才會讓雙腳的指甲傷到肉，她哭了！
從此她變每個禮拜回家，用一盆溫水先幫母親泡腳再幫她剪指甲，
泡溫水是讓腳指甲變軟，才不會因為這樣不好剪而傷到母親的腳。
一直以為父母也應該跟我們一樣能適應這個變化的世界，
新的科技、新的資訊，新的理財觀...
直到最近幾年才知道他們追的蠻辛苦的，
遙控器太多太複雜、聽不懂的專業術語、完全陌生的理財工具...
直到最近幾年才知道為了怕我們不耐煩，父母偶爾忍住了想說的話，想做的事，
如果沒有這次遠遊，遲鈍的我也不會知道，一向熱心打點照顧我們子女無微不至的父母，

退休十幾年的老爸，竟衰老得如此快速。
我們五姊妹只湊足了三個，決定陪爸媽去新加坡玩。
在去程的飛機上，老爸四小時都不願如廁，任憑我們好說歹說，他依然老僧入定，不肯起身。
在每一站觀光區，他也是非到萬不得已才進男廁。
有次我觀察到他小解很久才出來，看不到熟悉親人身影，
先是向東搜尋，繼而向西眺望，即使在這節骨眼，
他也不願放聲大喊大叫，讓我們子女沒有顏面，
站在陌生人群中，一副茫然失魂的樣子，安靜、耐心等子女們的出現，

我終於瞭解他出門在外不願如廁的原因。
以前不解事的小兒子常笑他八十幾歲的外婆，連鈕釦都不會扣，真慢！真笨！
好簡單的一件事，為什麼老人家們就是做不好？
我們還未經歷到，當然難以理解，年紀大了，
有時候手腳會不由自主、不聽使喚，
我以為老爸和婆婆之間還有一大段差距，誰知他也不知不覺走到這個階段了。
往後行程我根本無心玩賞，只要看到老爸表情稍有異樣，
便好說歹說強行押解他到男廁，自己則只好守在男廁外頭，
起初老爸感到萬分不自在，後來也就漸漸習慣了。

回程飛機上，我陪老爸去洗手間，
他忽然低聲對我說：「其實我不會鎖機上廁所的門。」
我拍拍他肩膀，告訴他：「沒關係」心裡卻翻湧出一陣心酸。
心裡很想告訴同行的妹妹，下次出遊，把各自的老公也帶來，也可以多盡一份心，
也很想告訴沒有同來的么妹，錢財日後都賺得回來，
唯有父母健在安康，又能帶著遠遊，這才是為人子最大的福份；
想告訴老爸，如廁問題解決了，我們下次可以飛到更遠的地方去旅行。

一趟旅行帶給了我許多感觸，
也讓再度離開家、身在火車上的我不禁滴下眼淚....
或許是自己太多愁善感，也或許擔心自己的父母狀況，
只是自己一直沒發覺，才驚覺原來老爸老媽也變老了，變脆弱了，
不再是以前那「強壯的臂膀」、「溫暖的避風港」，
原來一直幫我扛著頭上那片天的巨人，人也會變老....

後記：《余光中的一段詩》
母難日，今生今世，我最忘情的哭聲有兩次，
一次在我生命的開始，一次在妳生命的告終，

第一次我不會記得是聽妳說的，
第二次妳不會曉得我說也沒用，

但兩次哭聲的中間啊！有無窮無盡的笑聲，
一遍一遍又一遍，迴盪了整整三十年，
妳都曉得我都記得。

A Love Story

2005-03-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

objected strongly on her dating this guy.
Saying that it has got to do with family background,& that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you
marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of telephone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

iF u really like the story, repost it so that ur frenDs can read it too...and fulfill any unfulfilled promises.... ^_^

阿弥陀佛!!!!

2005-03-18T01:18:00.000+08:00

菩提本無樹，明鏡亦非台；本來無一物，何處惹塵埃!
阿弥陀佛!!!!

Sigh.... headache now.. i have no idea how to do my lab..... so, i decided to take a "quick" nap from 10pm.. just woke up and saw this meaningful 靜思語 from my friend's MSN nick.. I like it so much!!!

3 Crazy Malaysians VS a Crazy Japanese

2005-03-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

Today, i bought a NIKE sport shoe in Queenway Shopping Mall with Tyng. I was told that the shoes' price there are quite reasonable compare to the other. However it was quite expensive for my shoe, it costed me about SG$104!!! Wo.... dunnow how to explain to my dad. But i think he will understand me.... hehehe... Cos i can wear a shoe at least for a few years...
Then we went to IMM and NTUC with Rie and Zi Bin to buy some stuffs for cooking Japanese food... We bought a lot and we left until they closed... ^_* Hehehhe......However,it was a craziest day that i have ever had b4 in NUS. Why do i say so????!!!! After coming back to PGP, Tyng, Zi Bin and me have had a Waltz dance lesson from Rie from 1.30am until 4.30am. It was quite fun!!! I finally hav an idea what is ball room dance about. ^_^ Thanks Rie. Then, we had a 'breakfast' with Waffer and Japanese radish soup which were cooked by Zi Bin. Then, we decided to continue our madness followed by Tennis Table until around 5.30am. Then i ended up to wake up around 11am to rush for my assignments and my preparation for my coming tests.

It was the most craziest night we have never had b4!! It would be a memoriable night for me in NUS with them. ^o^
Play hard & work hard!! (This is what Daniel has told me!!) ^_*

Malaysian basketball night ^^

2005-03-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

~~Jumaat Malam~~
It was a windy evening.... my malaysian friends, Sam and Suk Min asked Tyng and me go down for basketball... after hesitate for a while, we decided to go down and play. Why did we hesitate before??? It is because it was just a girl, Suk Min in the team. The others were guys!!!! My god!! We were worry we will get bored and kacau them...... However, we went down and played finally.
Thus, Sam, Tyng, Hong Wu and another guy were in one team as Zi Bin, Jenfrey, me and another guy were in another team. It was really a good match although i was like a 'extra' in my team. I didn't help much in the team and i acted like a 'wooden' people. ^_* However, i enjoyed the game so much. I could see how great those guys were playing. It was really fun. How i wish i could play so 'geng' like them!!!!!
After the basketball court lights has turned off. Our match was ended. But some of us still felt like not ready to leave. We were still played and practised our skills there. Hence, i had a chance to play finally!! Hahahah..... Sam taught me his '絕技' to me...... he can plays and shot the ball very 有型！！！ Hahahhaa.... practise really make prefect!!! I know he practice a lot!!

After that, Sam came to my kitchen and ate my porridge which Tyng and me cook together. We both like the porridge so much. But Sam critic it..... :( But i admited that the porridge was not nice anymore when he ate it. Sorry Sam!!! Then, we had Honey Dew with Sam, Zi Bin and Tyng. YummY!!!!

Today we ate a lot and played a lot!!! ^0^
Happy day!!

Jenseits der Stille

2005-03-10T02:41:00.000+08:00

Hahaha....... i am quite lucky because i met a leng cai today. He was wearing a simple while shirt, long pants and sport shoe. Hmm........... i like to see a guy wear like that.... :P SIMPLE & NICE!!!! It is quite comfortable to see ppl wear appropriately to school rather than seeing ppl wear a short pants with slipper. #_# Dun u agree it too???!!!!

Ich habe heute im LT10 einen Film gesehen. Aber das ist nichts sher gut. Ich finde es verstehen nicht. :( Der Film ist Jenseits der Stille. This was my first time to watch German movie. That is talked about a girl named Lara, a eight years old girl whose parents are both deaf. Luckily she didn't inherite the 'disease', so she becomes a translator and speaker at home. On a Christmas Day in her Grandparents's house, she heard her Aunty and Grandfather plays music together. From that day, she fell in love with Klarinette (Clarinet, the instrument that her Aunty plays). Although her father doesn't like her play it, yet she learnt and played it for about ten years. Later, she becomes a good player in Klarinette. Her music teacher advised her to go for education to develope her talents. At the same time, her Aunty encouraged her to go to Berlin to further her education. However, her father was very angry and discourage her. Yet, she still insisted to go there alone. During the period of time, it happened many things to Lara's family included her mother's death. Finally, her father understand her and allow her to play it althought he can't hear anything. But at least, he understand his daughther. Actually i have no strong impression on this movie. Just wanna share it out. Sorry if it bored u...... ^_*
But there was not many ppl came to the movie, it was just a few of us. But i was quite surprised to see some foreigners there.... i met Eriko and Wing Yin also, they are taking German 3 and German 1 currently.... Hohoho....... ^0^

After the German movie, i moved to YIH study room. It was quite cold there although i had my jacket. Freezzing....................... However it is quite a good place for studying since ppl who surrounded you are so hardworking. So it forced you study hard too. Somemore, i won't feel boring when study there cos i will not feel that i am ALONE studying. Hehehhe.......... Thus, i studied until 12am......... Then, i walked back with my friend. It was a nice walk we have, we chat and joke on the way back. It was quite relax by walking back with friend at night. ^_^ It helps to release our stress after reading. Thanks my friend's accompany!!!!!

Oh!!! Althought i still have something to write. But it is too late now...... gonna meet my Mr Chou now!!! ZZzzzzzZzzzzzzzz..............................

Dinner with Japanese Food and some new friends!!!!!

2005-03-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

Today is ONE of my happy day. One of it is I have had a great dinner tonight with Japanese Dishes and French Pan Cake......... Thanks Rie and Nichola (sorry for wrong speeling)...... It was really fun and I am happy to meet some new friends from Thailand and Hong Kong. The dinner was really enjoyable and delicoius. ^_^ We chit chat and have joke together. We also had a excellent "performance" from John's and Rie's dance. Although it was quite short but it was GREAT!!! After our dinner, we went to Nichola's kicthen and try his French Pan Cake. Unfortunately, i have a stomach ache and just try a little bit the pan cake and leave. :(

This is our International Conference DInner!!! These are cook by Rie!!!!

Carrots and Yam??!!!

Sushi!! This was Rie's first time to make it!! Arigator!! ^_^

Finally, a "success" crepes is served!!!!!

Secondly, I got a grade B++ for my english presentation. I know it is not very good. But i am the one who is easy satisfy, expecially for those things that I dun expect much!! My tutor praised my voice is good and advised me to be a DJ one day!!! Hahaha............ now i can consider get into communication and media field after my graduation other than IT field which i am weak terribly!!!!
Oh... i was angling during my lectures today again. I was very tired and sleepy for the whole day. It all because i spent too much time on my programming these days. Hence, my eyes became weak and weak recently. I got my "red eye" these day. It was really suffering and i feel it quite itchy and pain. Then, i went to University Wealth Centre after my classes. Luckily the doctor said that my eyes is okay. It just need some rest. So, i have decided i will sleep early tonight. I will love my eyes always. It is because eyes is the most important part for me. Eyes is called as "Window of Spirit"!!!!!! Secondly is voice!!! Why is it so??!! It is because i like to sing!!! Hehehhe...........

My first blog!!!!

2005-02-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

After reading Si Jing's, John's and Zi Bin's blog. It make me feel like wanna make a blog also. Actually, my mission tonight is to study and prepare for my coming tests. However, the desire to make a blog first is stronger. Hehehe........ ^o^